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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

"Boycie 10:59 Sun Aug 30 ""Yes mate but usually the light is some bastard with a lamp bringing you more work! ""... ...which generally implies that you did a good job - or the best he could expect - the last time around."

Westham67 2:35 Sat Aug 29 Yes mate but usually the light is some bastard with a lamp bringing you more work!

"I'm through the worst of it. Alcohol helped me - it was my self harm treatment. Unfortunately, it also ruined me. Thinking of positives won't be easy at this moment, but even tiny ones will help."

Boycie. I have been there mate with the lost it all thing. I fully understand how you feel. But there is light at the end of the tunnel look at every day as getting closer to that light and you are every day that passes separates you from the past and look forward not backward

Boycie. I have been there mate with the lost it all thing. I fully understand how you feel. But there is light at the end of the tunnel look at every day as getting closer to that light and you are every day that passes separates you from the past and look forward not backward

"hope to god Roberto never plays for us again. Look for the things that make you happy and grab hold of them for as long as you can. Even if it is for a minute or two a day. Those moments get longer and longer. Get to sleep by 11 pm no lights and wake up at a decent time and get out in daylight first thing. It seriously helps. Walk around get exercise, we were made to keep on the move about 10-12km a day, it helps your mood seriously."

BUT there is light at the end of the tunnel. I have a lot to be grateful for. Things do get better you just have to keep looking out for beautiful things and

I wouldnt recommend either. I was diagnosed in my 40's after having symptoms since 12/13yrs old. Been off meds for years but going back on as I've hit the titwobbles again. I recognise my symptoms and manage them but everything thats happening at the moment is a bit too much. I've been beaten this time nothing like watching your life's work go down the toilet.

Hope it all goes well for you Block...

"Cheers, everyone! Alfs, From the scans looks as if the baby has inherited my head size...Poor wife...."

Block 12:09 Fri Aug 21 Congats mate

Bolt 11.40 Congratulations to you both

"When you say ""trying for 3 years"" do you mean it took you 3 years to persuade the mrs to push something that has a fair chance of inheriting your massive head out of her chuff?"

"Congrats Bolty, will be a chip off the old block!"

Congrats Block

Mace66.. 08.11 Good Post mate

"Davies, The reason for the baby wasn't to give me a focus, i'm saying it'll give me a focus. And you don't despise me, you might despise the fact you adore me"

"yeh the main reason to bring a kid into the world is to give you focus, definitely. I hope they grow up to despise you and everything about you even more then everyone who knows you already does."

"Haha, the main thing is that it will give me a focus!"

Congratulations!!! Fatherhood is roughly 90% hard work with 10% pure joy.

"Ha cheers mate. I feel so guilty for having them, haven't announced it on here but me and the wife expecting our first baby after 3 years of trying which is due in November, trying to focus on that!"

i can imagine fighting your size of head would be almost impossible ;) only kidding. i've no experience of this kind of thing so i'll say something bland like 'hang on in there Bolty'. seriously though - do please hang on in there.

"Been really struggling the last few days, old thoughts have blindsided me and I'm fighting my head like mad at the moment not to go off the rails on a coke bender. It's so fucking tiring, and I have huge guilt for even thinking it."

Fair play! https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/av/uk-england-derbyshire-53654447/why-i-run-with-a-car-tyre-on-my-back

"whu4eva Meaning / purpose I think is a common struggle and it’s easy to get too deep, just think of what you’ve achieved ( hopefully something no matter how small ) It doesn’t help if things go wrong but you have to try to accept that as normal for everyone not just you. Social media and news should be fucked off as much as possible. Over the lockdown I’ve noticed more than ever how people are trying to push their agenda, what great lives they have ( look at me doing this, isn’t my life just the best ) and particularly the hippy lefty wankers wanting everyone to sign this petition and that petition and forcing their views that we should all be doing more to save the world. They’re all more than likely struggling with the same questions"