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"Been through bad time lately with suffering with this. Dark thoughts as well. I know some posters on here suffer with this. Anyone come through the other side of this shit?

"A number of posters have been yellow carded and told to stay off this thread unless they have anything constructive to add.This is a thread that has been very useful to so many, for any other posters with scores to settle, argue on another thread. This thread is sacrosant.Thank you"

Long Covid sounds similar to M.E. 
 

One Sunny Day" wrote: ↑07 Nov 2024, 15:09

Django wrote: ↑06 Nov 2024, 19:48 I feel at the end of my rope. I’ve been living with long covid for nearly 3 years. It’s taken everything - job, money, marriage and a lot of friends. I used to run and play a lot of sport. Now nothing. I have a daughter who is my protective factor -  otherwise I’d probably have thrown the towel in. My existence feels very pointless now.

 

Sorry to hear that. I've had long covid for the last 12 months and like you, it's probably my kid that keeps me going. Just so hard to do the bare minimum to survive, ache all over and am tired out, constantly. You hang on in there, mate.

Tomshardware wrote: ↑07 Nov 2024, 15:08 Django,  Sorry to hear that, are you able to get help through your GP? 

Django wrote: ↑06 Nov 2024, 19:48 I feel at the end of my rope. I’ve been living with long covid for nearly 3 years. It’s taken everything - job, money, marriage and a lot of friends. I used to run and play a lot of sport. Now nothing. I have a daughter who is my protective factor -  otherwise I’d probably have thrown the towel in. My existence feels very pointless now.

 

Django,  Sorry to hear that, are you able to get help through your GP? 

I feel at the end of my rope. I’ve been living with long covid for nearly 3 years. It’s taken everything - job, money, marriage and a lot of friends. I used to run and play a lot of sport. Now nothing. I have a daughter who is my protective factor -  otherwise I’d probably have thrown the towel in. My existence feels very pointless now.

One Sunny Day" wrote: ↑06 Nov 2024, 13:36 Well this is shit. Just found out an old mate down the road topped himself over the weekend. Was away at a family wedding so missed it all. He's struggled all his life with mental health issues. His missus was away with the kids and worried because she couldn't get hold of him. A neighbour of mine who has a key went round and found him dead in his house. Depression is a proper bastard.

Well this is shit. Just found out an old mate down the road topped himself over the weekend. Was away at a family wedding so missed it all. He's struggled all his life with mental health issues. His missus was away with the kids and worried because she couldn't get hold of him. A neighbour of mine who has a key went round and found him dead in his house. Depression is a proper bastard.

Almost 100 days off Amitriptyline and now on my final med which is 2mg buprenorphine under the tongue.

This is to replace both the patch and cocodamol which I've now stopped taking.

Since I've been taking this sublingual I have like the poster on the antibiotics been sickly all week.

Hope this is now easing.

I'm still trying to navigate this new format so I am not sure if I am replying to someone else or not. Apologies in advance if I am

I did mention before that I had an appointment a 90-minute appointment with a professor of neuropsychiatry on 18th September 42 during the appointment I was told I should not have been prescribed Sertraline and took off it for an alternative. (I was prescribed Sertraline by a GP who  changed the prescription I had from a psychiatrist for citalopram as I had side effects on May or June 21)

About 4 weeks into taking Sertraline I had my first sick note for panic disorder and that continued losing job after job on June 22. I have done three weeks of work since then. On October 21 I had 4 hours in total of cognitive testing the results for my memory for either brain damage or "Significant inattention " after the head scan it was the latter

Before Sertaline I had none of the above. I had a medical negligence lawyer take my case last week (One of many who wanted it ) its not on a whim they have most of my medical records and their rate is £280 an hour. No win no fee for 25% plus 12% insurance in case I need a barrister of further independent second opinion 

I have read NHS don't normally go to court . After a professor of neuropsychiatry took me off of Sertraline I cannot see NHS asking for a second opinion. The average settlement for an NHS negligence case is north of £200 K. and takes about 8 months.

For those who don't know GPs are not qualified to change anti-depressants prescribed by a psychiatrist, they should refer me back to a psychiatrist. That is the negligence

If you're still on here, Peckham, Starmer has just announced:

"Housing plans: The PM announced plans to house homeless veterans, care leavers and domestic abuse victims. It means those groups will be exempt from having to providing a local connection to the area they're applying to."

If that's fast-tracked it may well help you. Might help if you "mail-bomb" your current local MP's inbox.

I am reading a book called The Body Keeps the Score about how your body reacts to mental health issues. I have not had CBT for PTSD and to quote the book. PTSD the body continues to defend against a threat that belongs to the past. My adrenaline can rise quickly and take a long time to come down. I have to see a neuropsychiatrist on the 18th of September for a 90-minute appointment. I am writing everything down

I had one of the most stressful weeks in a long time last week, I ended up in A&E I passed out in a shop and hit my head on the floor on Wednesday evening. After extensive tests, it was found that my passing out was a psychological episode due to the stress. 

Far Cough UKunt" wrote: ↑02 Sep 2024, 15:07 I've had depression all my fucking life, I'm currently on Quetiapine, Promethazine, Mirtazapine, Gabapentin and  Circadin for sleep. Depression is a cսnt, no ifs and buts about it. Hope you all get some relief.

I've had depression all my fucking life, I'm currently on Quetiapine, Promethazine, Mirtazapine, Gabapentin and  Circadin for sleep. Depression is a cսnt, no ifs and buts about it. Hope you all get some relief.

Glad you are ok Frank, it sounds like the after effects were worse than the actual accident. 

This Summer I was involved in a car accident.

laft work, was meeting my wife for dinnér, driving home easy 75 miles an hour, all of a sudden a car rams me from the side, pushing me into the next lane where I am hit by another vehicle.

the 1st guy who hit me on the left carried on driving, hit n run and the guy that hit me was slumped on his steering wheel, wrecked and smoke coming from the vehicle.

I run up to him and thankfully he wakes up and asks me if I'm OK. cops show up, hit n run. not my fault Noone hurt.

for a few weeks after im waking up in tbe night thinking ive killed someone, didn't sleep for weeks, started drinking before bed to knock myself out, got covid twice and that laid me out for a week both times. thoughts went to what if I was killed, what would the kids do, would anyone care. I didn't want to drive and more or less became scared of everything.

went to the Dr's, i was told therpy for trauma was needed and it did. clearer heeded now, not drank for 9 weeks and moved on from the whole thing.

helps out there, go and get it. 


 

"Please stay strong fellas , Peckam & Pents , hard times right now & we all need to stick together & be what we are United , through all the injustice & division that is being lobbed our way !"

"Cheers Manuel, ur right actually, i keep getting told to pull myself together and face it etc but that is so easier said than done. This country with custody is fucked. A woman can take ur child for no reason, make a load of shit up and then when u ask police to get involved they say its civil and by time i get this case done i wont have seen him for 6 months. they already trying to break the bond. as for peckham, i apoligise for saying fight. that was lame. remeember what u r due from that housing company and remember its enough for most people to start afresh. i know u want to stay there but if thats impossible, try to comfort urself with the thought u will be away from the bullies and able to go by the sea."

"Pents - Best of luck with that mate. You often hear the 'fight' line but for me it's easier said than done, that's for sure, IMO you can only fight for so long and you have to have something worth fighting for. Hope it works out for you and Pecks."

"Peckham please dont do that. you are worth more than that. i am sorry i have not been in touch. i am going through my own shit, ive been banged up and out then arrested again all on jumped up charges. ive also had to try and raise 25k to go to trial for child custody which is a nightmare. ive had the same thoughts as you trust me but i keep strong with the belief that we are worth more than that. fight fight fight mate."

"Tough read that, Pecks, but - and here I'm probably taking a liberty - We'd rather hear from you than about you. If producing such writings helps, then I don't think anyone begrudges you that space & time. Rest assured that what you post is read, even if often no response is forthcoming. Some of us (just me, probably) can often only wish we could do more but have yet to find a handle or hook onto your experiences to even start the process, however, we're all West Ham so you're not alone, even if it often seems that way. Make sure that you register on the new site if & when you get the chance so you can keep posting once this one joins the ""choir invisibule."" Best regards."

"The redundant wanna be poet returns. I went to hang myself with a noose and end my life. I was in hotel and there is a Russian method to hang and die from door handle using tights. When I could not breath I panicked and cried. I had no knife to cut rope-tights so I had to use a lighter. now I have trouble breathing and am coughing up lots of blood. I am self medicating self harming and slowly losing will to survive. What is life living simply to survive rather than be happy. Now diagnosed with Organic disoroder - Delirium and Dementia, have had pyscosis and some one a neighbour has punched me twice hard in the head and ran away. I now face anti social behaviour eviction and injunction and eviction from military veterans housing where i live and Chelsea FC own. Go to court for a trial September. I will not get council housing. Thanks to government and 15 years in Madrid I have already been homeless in East London. It was tough and shit. Just miss my Mother and never felt so worthless and lost. I have more friends dead than alive. If I had a gun - considering purchasing - it would make suicide so much easier. A poem entitled Black Dog Death. In the silence of midnight's veil, A shadow dances, frail and pale, It whispers soft, a mournful song, A melody where hearts belong. The moon, a sentinel in the sky, Watches tears that dare not cry, For pain is silent, hidden deep, In souls where dreams have ceased to sleep. Each breath a burden, each thought a knife, Carving scars into the fabric of life, Hope, a flicker in the dark, But the night extinguishes every spark. Loneliness, a cruel embrace, An endless void, an empty space, Where laughter fades, and echoes die, Leaving only the question: why? The world spins on, a distant blur, Unseen, unheard, no longer sure, If tomorrow's dawn will bring the light, Or if the shadows will claim the night. In the stillness, a final plea, A wish to simply cease to be, But in that silence, a voice remains, A whisper of life amidst the pains. Hold on, dear soul, through darkest night, For somewhere, somehow, there is light, A hand to hold, a heart to mend, A broken path that still can bend. The abyss calls, with siren song, But the spirit knows where it belongs, Not in the depths, not in the fall, But in the strength to rise, to stand tall. So breathe, though the air is thin, Fight the darkness from within, For in the night, when all seems lost, The dawn breaks, no matter the cost."

"Well done to side and anyone else who's weaned themselves off the meds. I've recently done the same, was on 40mg of Citalopram at one time. Gradually tapered off it and now going running regularly and get my high's from that now. Best wishes to all."

Thanks Charley and Chim That's week 5 done and it couldn't have gone any better. Tapering is the only way. The last few nights I was just sticking a finger in the liquid solution and dabbing a bit on the tongue It can be done

"Well done side effect...that must have been very difficult for you mate, glad it is all going well for you"